The Rainbow After the Storm

I always knew I wanted to be a mom – maybe because I was lucky enough to grow up with an amazing mom myself. 

I married my husband in 2014. After a year of being married, we decided we were ready to have a baby. We got pregnant right away. I scheduled my first OB appointment, and we started talking about baby names. I was so excited that my dream of having my own family was coming true. 

Then I started bleeding. My husband tried to reassure me that everything was okay, but I knew deep down that I was losing our baby. I had an ultrasound later that afternoon, which confirmed what I already knew – our baby was gone. 

The year following my miscarriage was a roller coaster: a lot of fertility drugs, a lot of negative pregnancy tests, and a lot of tears. Then, just when I was ready to give up, I got pregnant – with twins! 

Have you heard the term rainbow baby? A rainbow baby is a baby born after a storm of loss (a miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss).

After the flood, when the world had been washed by storm and sorrow, God placed a rainbow in the sky as a promise of His mercy and faithfulness. The rainbow was a promise of new life. 

In the same way, a rainbow baby is a living reflection of that promise – a reminder that after deep sorrow, God brings beauty, healing, and light. The rainbow doesn’t erase the memory of the storm, but it tells the story of survival and new beginnings. 

My dream of becoming a mom didn’t happen the way I imagined. But as I look at my rainbow babies today, I see God’s promise fulfilled. I see that His plan, while different from mine, was always at work - and His plan for me was so much better than I could have imagined!